The most amazing boy...

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This past work week must have been one of the longest in my life. Three days of running around, writing report cards, sharing the love between 25 little ones, observations, and super fast planning for the upcoming week...all to be able to take a long weekend away from this hellish place I call home. Now to speed bump over the idea of home being so awful, I just hate the constant feeling of being alone. Without my loves, I'm lost. We all know this by now so back to the fast track of the weekend lifestyle in Hoboken and NYC. This weekend was nothing less than perfect. Dom and I took a trip to north jersey to hang with a few friends, eat some damn good food, and fill our bellies with a ton of beer. All three events on our list are checked off as complete, but we were given much much more then we even bargained for once we arrived.

First of all Hoboken is beautiful. I love it. I'd move there tomorrow if I had the salary and lifestyle to do so. As for the people..fantastic. Just a down to earth, successful and fun place to be. Walking in the city, eating chocolate covered cannolis and people watching all in one afternoon is wonderful as well. As for the night scene we hit up two amazing places that I recommend: the beer garden in Hoboken and City Winery in NYC. Both places have fantastic atmosphere, great service and awesome food and drinks. I'd go to both places again in a blink of an eye. At the city winery we were fortunate to see Ben Lee sing within the cozy venue. He is hilarious and his voice is so soothing. After that incredible show the tables turned and some ladies got up stay to performe a show called burlesque. Wow was that a blast! All in all, the weekend was filled with laughter, friends, food, and great music.

As for being back to the daily grind...it sucks. Leaving Dom again today was not easy and the slow "single" feeling in my head doesn't help a girl to smile. Just going to have to keep my head up, work out (god knows I need to with the amount of food and drinks in me), and plan the upcoming girls weekend. Until next time my fellow readers. Mwuah...

Hey readers...I feel like I'm riding an emotional roller coaster lately and I must say that as I wrote my last post I thought my world was about to be turned upside down. Dom made a choice and will not be moving for work after all. This was a surprise to many, including myself, because of his desire to be successful, but I think that things will work out for the best. I tried to stay neutral with decision making so I wouldn't have much emotional influence on the choices made so I forced myself into total "friend" mode. I wanted to give advice and be helpful like a best friend would be and I only pray that what I said helped. As for things now, he's just continuing to keep the ball rolling and I am just looking forward to great news that will help him create steady roots for life. I am just so proud of his eagerness and the willingness to be patient and smart. He truly is one of a kind :)

As for me, I am feeling good. I just devoured a mug full of moose tracks ice cream with rainbow jimmies for dessert and plan to read or let myself drift into a great chick flick. My weekend had its ups and downs, but the ups outweigh the rest. Dom came up Friday and we had a blast as usual. Mexican dinner and drinks with ice cream Sundays for dessert. Then just hanging out and enjoy each others company. I honestly still get giddy when he is around. We just have so much fun and he makes me feel so happy in simple ways. Saturday was great too...ladies night in Conshy with wine that could drown anyone. It was exactly what I needed to wind down and reboot my life. Well actually I think the Advil, extra nap and a long night sleep to cure my hangover first will reboot me for another work week. Hahaha my friends are the best.

Now it's just: get through it until I am with Dom or my family again. I am throwing around the idea of joining a yoga studio to do bikram yoga a few times a month. I've done it once before and can't get it out of my head....Any thoughts?

As I drove away from ocean city tonight with tears streaming down my face and what seemed like the drive to hell ahead of me, all I could think of was the idea of driving to the place where I live as I was leaving my home. that feeling eats away like fire through newspaper and I thought my heart would never feel the same. I am always upset leaving Dom and driving back to a place where I feel like my only connection to life is work, but tonight was especially hard. With dom's incredible news and more than likely move hundreds of miles away, the reality hit that this could have been one of my last weekends spending it as a "local" in ocean city. I didn't think I was so attached to the stinky carpet and the constant smell of dudes, but I guess I really did love it and feel welcome into the home. It is amazing how you don't realize the connection to something until you feel it slipping away. With my broken heart and blubbery face, I used my only resources that could help me shake the blues...my sisters. I called jack and she took my mind elsewhere: funny family stories and silly celeb shots. Then, I called Lauren and she made me feel strong. She encouraged me to continue using my strength, happiness and love as my motivation. She told me to stay strong and look from the positive side, not the negative. She reminded me why I do what I do....love. I do what I do, I fight for what I want and I work my ass off for the future I feel like I deserve. Lauren brought me back down to reality by " slapping my cheek" and saying you will be ok, fight through it and remember why you do it. She told me that I am lucky enough to have a weekend of laughter and love. She is absolutely right. This weekend was full of fun, laughs, friends, good food and most importantly love. My tears come from the love I feel every time I visit O.C and the love I have for the people and things there. My life seems tough at times, but I am lucky. I might be one of the luckiest girls in the world...4 incredible sisters, friends that are always there, and a guy that loves me for who I am. What more could a girl ask for?

"People need dreams, there's as much nourishment in them as food."

~ Dorothy Gilman

We'll all get there someday. Sweet dreams my readers...